At 11:05 pm last Monday evening Lynn brought a new life into the world. The feelings are incredibly complex. Gratitude that she felt close enough to me, even given all that we have been through, to ask me to be with her. Incredible frustration that at the very last minute her current boyfriend "decided" that he did not want anyone else in the room once he deigned himself ready to appear on the scene - many hours after all of the hard work was almost done. Fear that she doesn't yet have the skills or the maturity to be a mom herself and what that might mean for this very sweet new soul. Excitement for some fresh buds of family healing, especially with Melissa. Overall awe at the realization that I have another grandchild in the world. And finally, a realization that with this new life, I will undoubtedly be "back in the soup." But for right now, I just want to think about our new little 'Peter', remember how he smells and feels and just be grateful.
